March 1, 2012

• (Ugly) surprises, compromises, and a note.

  This feels like it’s going to be very vague.

  Every time I think I’m going to have a chance to get down to business and catch up, more obstacles appear. To complicate things more, the obstacles grow in size every time I scramble to regain my center. I feel like I am continually losing ground, with less time available to catch up. I need a reset.

  I need to find serenity. Things feel like they are moving too fast. Too many plates, too much speed, too much inexperience all at once.

  Reminder to self: Yes, stuff happens. However, I know many things better now than I did before, and I know them well. Some lessons come easily. Some lessons come with a little collateral damage. This makes some lessons expensive. It happens. I’ll know better next time, and I really will. Madre still loves me.

  -b.

   

  • 1:29 am
  • 2 Comments