September 17, 2012
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Who knew?
“You can’t make your heart feel something it won’t”
Apparently I’d rather dig deep into my past mistakes and misfortunes than get homework assignments done early.
The vestiges of past relationships that used to serve their purposes are STILL alive and kickin’. Strangely, it’s both frustrating and comforting to hold onto them as I continue trudging on through the present.
The good times were good. The not so good times… eesh.
Perhaps my brain is too good at this selective memory business. Perhaps I need to stop lying to myself and admit that I care. For no reason at all, I care.
It happens. It’s okay though, nobody’s getting hurt.
… I think?
Aw no, I have an exam at 3 to finish studying for…
-b.
Comments (7)
Hard to forget, isn’t it?
Nobody’s getting hurt? I think you are.
@GreekPhysique - Ohhh yes. Harder than I thought, honestly. Stubborn thoughts be stubborn.
@heythereJOANN - Ah, perhaps. But it’s not like that’s new in this scenario. I don’t think there’s really room to blame anyone but me at this point, heh. :
@B2yan_C - Don’t blame yourself. That just makes things worse. Look forward to better things.
I’m here to talk if you need to. Feel better. hugs.
@heythereJOANN - You da awesome.
Samezies. I find that the bitterness comes through when speaking to the person, no matter how hard I try to hold it back or not mention it.
But I figure it’ll stop. Eventually.
@Rhia_Pyrithea - For me, I have to consciously remember that the good times were not the only times in my relationships… and then I have to try to not show (too much) bitterness! ha
I gotta say, Kid Cudi had it right when he said “If I ever met you, I appreciate the love yo, and girls that I dated… it’s okay I am not mad, yo — unless you stabbed me in the heart, ho’– that shit is so ill” lmao cracks me up.